This is not my first blog. I used to keep a blog in Xanga back in 7th grade about my daily activities - nothing personal, really. Sometime around first year high school, I got tired of it and only then did I find out that a lot of people actually read my blog. I was surprised to say the least when people started approaching me and asking me why I shut my blog down. I actually didn't, it was only a fake shut down so I could still read my posts at my own leisure. After a while, I started keeping a personal journal - you know, like a Dear Diary you actually write on everyday. They're really worth the time and effort and I still go back to them whenever I feel like it. Back in first year, I also used to share a journal with my best friend and another one with my clique although they were both short-lived. When I was in fourth year high school, I started keeping what I call a "suicide notebook" of some sort. Obviously, I haven't committed suicide yet. It was just a notebook for all my negative thoughts; I didn't want to stain my journal. Aside from playing soccer, it helped me keep my temper in check. I found keeping that notebook very relieving, as if I'm writing my worries and problems away.
As I've said, this is not my first blog but I think this might be my first very public blog. I usually keep my blogs private or only for a few people to see but I'm trying to.. change. I don't like change but I'm trying to get used to it. So, excuse me if you find yourself reading about incessant rants and petty or nonsensical things; I'm still trying to get used to the idea that practically just anyone can read this.
